*.* 15 June 2009 *.*
15 June 2009
Oh yeah...u tink so? nah i dun tink so...i dun noe why i jus cant let it go...it has been so painful tis few days...i myself dun noe how to survive...i tink u r ......forget it....haiz dun wanna talk abt it...
Today go band...was tired luh...then yeah go thru so many songs...can go crazy...haha...then after band play basketball wif some of the band people and instructor...haha...dun wanna say abt tis cuz i am afraid later my hand break uh...haha
Songtat~9 days of the pain....
THE CHILD OF GOD blogged @ | 4:40 AM
*.* 9 June 2009 *.*
9 June 2009
i gt nth to blog but onli some things....today is bored alright?
It is seriously nt ur fault luh...is me...is really my fault my problem...there is nth wrong that u had done...is me...i m stupid....ytd night b4 i go to sleep, i cried again while praying...the tears that has been shed...i could rmb the feeling...is always there...how sad could i have felt? i dun noe...but is nt ur fault...i am jus crying for.....and i cried for 2 nightz somemore uh...but is nt ur fault...is me...While i was listening to the song 'Boston' by augustana i was already sad and the song is an emo song so it suit me uh....People i dun noe why am i becoming like tis...i am so sorry. forgive me uh... I am so sorry if i was rude to anyone for tis past few days...i was really hurt...i wan to cut myself but i jus cant i dunno why...i am nt sick or whatever...is jus that tis happening has hit me hard that i am like that...Is been 2 days and nightz...i shall continue be emo for the rest of the days till it heal...i was listening to another song ytd called 'stop crying your heart out' by oasis...tis song was like totally reverse of 'Boston'... i really dun noe how am i going to live on...
To my friends, thanks for trying to cheer me up but is of no use...sorry...is my fault seriously...
Songtat~Emo
THE CHILD OF GOD blogged @ | 10:04 PM
*.* 8 June 2009 *.*
8 June 2009
Am i really that weak? Do i really suck? i cant stand the pain...seriously...it is like a knife piercing thru my heart...i seriously cant tahan anymore....ytd night i prayed to God and i broke down and cried suddenly...is it worth it? i tink so...but why mus all tis happen to me? i cried and cried and trying to forget someone...but i cant....the pain is really deep i can feel it...why? why mus it be happening to me? Someone pls tell me why!!! those trouble is getting worser and worser...how i hope that i can jus die...How i hope that i nv exist in tis world...dun u guys agree? does it make a difference when i exist? haizzz
Zhen zuo qi lai??? I dun noe how to....i jus gonna screw and f*** myself up....my existence= more harm and trouble and problem to people...i jus suck....gonna die....
Songtat~gonna cry tonight...
THE CHILD OF GOD blogged @ | 4:33 PM
*.* 7 June 2009 *.*
6 June 2009
rot at home till dun noe what time..then go pasir ris whitesand meet my friends then bring them go church and watch awesome musical...the musical was really awesome lar....seriously...haha...u nv watch u comfirm regret....then at night go eat my dinner at 10plus pm....ya...k dun wan stretch the story long cuz i no mood...
7 June 2009
Woke up early and went to church....then attended yz...then after that stay in church explore whole church then go in play hide n seek like no other business like that...damn fun lar...
Why? Why mus tis happen to me? I really hated myself...why? why do i even exist in this world lar...f*** man...why do i always fail? i am so hurt...nvm....damn...stupid silly stubborn me...i jus cant stand myself...whywhywhy? Feel like killing myself and torture myself...life just sux totally...God can u tell me why??? i m so f*** up...feel like sleeping and nv wake up...Can anybody understand how i feel? What am i suppose to do? Cry?
songtat~tears dripping on my cheeks...
THE CHILD OF GOD blogged @ | 1:53 AM
